Month In Review: May 2018

May wasn’t the best month for me. I didn’t have the right medication dose and frequency, so I was struggling with the wrong dose and then adjusting to the proper one once I got it. My moods were all over the place. I’ve also been having nightmares more often, which wake me up early in the morning or in the middle of the night, and then I dissociate until I can ground myself in reality again. If you read my last post, about ugly bullet journal spreads, my planning was subpar. May didn’t have any major stresses, but it was a lot of personal issues relating back to my moods that influenced the month. Ah, the joys of having mental illness… But let’s take a quick look at other parts of May.

A celebration: I launched a Patreon! This will be for sneak peeks, behind the scenes, and exclusive content as thanks for support—and also, mostly, as motivation for me.

A change: For the last 2 weeks of May, I took a social media hiatus, which will continue into June. I have an addictive personality (thanks, bipolar!) and social media can become addicting to me. This was a needed and welcome change.

A conflict: I had issues with my prescription, so I wasn’t at the appropriate dosage for a few weeks. Then, I needed to adjust to the proper amount. I struggled with the adjustment and getting into a schedule/routine.

A relief: I got a job! Working for my own business is a job, but I got another part-time job that will hopefully help me over the next while.

A regret: Less writing than I wish I had done! This is a big pattern of regrets and problems for me. I’m not prioritising my writing as much as I’m prioritising other things.

A random memory: We had a massive wind storm in Ontario at the start of the month. It rained, and then the sun shone while the wind blew through in my town. I was out for a walk (returning a library book) and on my way home when I heard a tree cracking. I stopped and looked around—and then the tree fell down in front of me to block the whole road. A spider also fell on me in the wind right before the tree fell. The tree scared me more than the spider.

I’m feeling more hopeful for June. Some of my plans include signing up for a gym membership, finally finishing edits for The Pilgrimage, starting beta reading and sensitivity reading for The Pilgrimage, and making some adjustments to my website! Offline, the yard needs a lot of work, so I’ll be outside reclaiming the property from the overgrowth. I also have an announcement at the start of June, so stay tuned for that. I won’t be looking forward to the heat of summer, but a new month is a great time to start fresh with goals. Let’s hope I don’t burn out or get sunburned!

Month In Review: April 2018

April felt incredibly long, but not sluggish like March. I think I experienced all four seasons’ worth of weather—winter, fall, summer, and spring. But mostly winter. I had lots of small projects to work on, so I was fairly busy, but thankfully not overwhelmed. I can’t reveal everything I did this month, but much of it relates back to my artistic creating!

A celebration: I managed to get over the hardest parts of my revision of The Pilgrimage! Chapters 5 to 9 needed to be completely rewritten from nothing, and I finished them!

A change: The status of my employment changed! This is a good change.

A conflict: It still felt like winter all month long. It snowed for a week straight at one point and I was so done with it. I love winter so much, but when I lasts from November to the end of April? Half a year of winter? No fucking thank you.

A relief: I spent a week out of town and it ended up feeling like a mini-vacation. I traveled 2 hours away from my hometown and where I stayed was filled with grass, sunshine, and the beginning of spring!

A regret: The Pilgrimage didn’t get finished this month. I’ve been trying to finish it for a year now. I’m trying not to beat myself up over it, but I’m eager to finish so I can start Avatar Five, another fantasy novel-length project.

A random memory: I went to a dog park with my pal and his family dog (Alaskan Malamute, I love her), and we got a little lost on the way home. We were walking in a path and I almost stepped on a gartner snake. They’re relatively harmless to humans, so I paused and gave it some distance. It’s been a while since I’ve seen a snake in the wild, but I recognised it as the same kind that used to hang around my old house. (My friend is scared of snakes and went ahead with the pupper.)

Overall, April was a full month. I came home to warmer weather, made a pact to get back into jogging now that I can, and I’m feeling optimistic about May.

Month In Review: March 2018

Another month, another month in review. March felt like it crawled by. Sticky. Something long and arduous about it. Maybe it was the weather, constantly shifting from below freezing to warm breezes? It’s almost surreal that now it’s April.

A celebration: Spring is around the corner! Soon, I’ll have sweater weather, sunshine, flowers, and the joy of not having allergies!

A change: My younger brother finally brought home two cats named Pepper and Orangie.

A conflict: I’ve been applying for jobs, with no success.

A relief: I no longer have to pay for prescription medication (if the medication is covered by the new drug plan).

A regret: Once again, my novel’s edits went to the backburner. I’ve completed 5 chapters, so that’s something, but I wanted to have the novel done before March even started.

A random memory: I went to the grocery store one night to buy milk and bananas. I paid in exact change and didn’t use a bag, so I left the store carrying a bag of milk (#Canada) and holding a bunch of bananas. I felt powerful.

I don’t have any major plans for April aside from finishing my novel, preparing to launch (but not yet launching) a big creative thing (!!!), and getting back into exercising regularly. All I can say is I’m happy that spring is coming around. This winter felt very long and unpredictable.

Hello 2018!

Welcome to March. Welcome to the new website! I’m so, so pleased that I finally got a design done for the site. I’ve been using a premade theme since I launched the blog at the start of 2016. Now, after all this time, my hand-coded theme is up. It also came with some rebranding to make my social media presence (on Twitter and Facebook) more “me” and cohesive with the website.

As of right now, I do not have the mobile site ready, so if you are a mobile reader, I apologise! Over the next little while, I’ll code the responsive design and (hopefully) seamlessly integrate it. I also don’t have my portfolio up, but that will be coming over the next month.

Let me know how you like the new design! It feels very “on brand” for me and who I feel I am as a person. If you encounter any glitches with it, please let me know here or on Twitter or any of my listed social media!

Anyway, where have I been since December? Let’s review, ok ok.

Month In Review: January 2018

I’ll be honest, January feels so far away to me. I remember I did driving lessons and that it was very cold most of the month. I’ve decided to be fairly private with my goals, at least for the first while of the year, but I’ll share one. I aim to submit to one literary magazine or journal each month of this year.

A celebration: I submitted some of my writing to a literary magazine!

A change: I spent less time on social media.

A conflict: My mental health was not the greatest this month.

A relief: I am decently medicated. That’s really the only relief I feel.

A regret: My driving test was cancelled and rescheduled to February.

A random memory: I had a guy on a dating app interrogate me about my mental illness, which I’m open about on these types of things, and then (after a few messages all on one day) had him decide that I was not mentally ill. He also sent me a ridiculously long poem AND a ridiculously long message about him being a “wanderer”; I thought it was all incredibly pathetic.

Month In Review: February 2018

It feels like spring came very early by the end of February, and I’m not complaining about it. The unfortunate cause is global climate change, but I can go outside without it being an immediate danger to myself, so I’m okay.

A celebration: I wrote another piece for submission!

A change: The website and my online brand got a refresh, which I love. I technically finished it at the start of March, but the design was finalised in February and the last few days were small-change-city.

A conflict: I feel insecure financially and it makes me very nervous for the future.

A relief: I passed my G2 driving test and can now drive alone.

A regret: I didn’t edit as much as I wanted to. I completed 2 chapters, but then the editing went to the backburner as I got into the thick of redesigning.

A random memory: My family spontaneously got together for a meal out at a restaurant. It was lovely, and we scheduled for another one in March. I think my dad wants to make it a habit to catch up with his kids, and I’m all for it.


I’m back now, so prepare yourselves for more blogging! I’ve brainstormed so many posts and ideas. I feel confident that my content is going to improve over the next few months. I’ve had time to work on the purpose for this blog, and now that I’m completely out of school, I can devote more time to it.

My freelancing business will be the main focus for my online presence, including the website. The last year has been incredible, working with writers and reading their stories. I’m so proud of each of them and what they’ve done with their writing. I’m excited to work with more people and do more creative projects with new writers!

Month In Review: October 2017

A celebration: My dad got married!

A change: The season. It got cold very quickly.

A conflict: Inner turmoil. Feelings of not being good enough. But also not giving a fuck if I can’t meet my own standards.

A relief: Therapy.

A regret: Not a lot of blogging.

A random memory: I sat on my lawn for a while just watching a wild bunny eat. This little act made me remember my bunny, who passed away a year ago, and feel more connected with the cycle of life, death, nature, and humanity. By far the best random memory I’ve had this month.

Onward to November. I’m feeling very withdrawn, though you could also say I’m feeling very introspective. That’s the reason why my blog posts have been lacking this month. But I’m not forcing anything to happen. Just taking it one day at a time and trying to find myself again.

Month In Review: September 2017

September is gone and it doesn’t really feel like autumn yet because of the outrageous heat wave we experienced in Southern Ontario. Climate change is awful, everyone. I will not survive this kind of heat on a daily basis in the future, ugh.

Anyway! I didn’t really get up to much in September. It feels like I kind of drifted through the weeks.

A celebration: I signed up for both driver’s ed and a mindfulness CBT program! Driver’s ed has gone well (2 more classes) and the MCBT program starts in the middle of October and goes to the end of the year.

A change: My medication was increased, thankfully.

A conflict: I struggled with time management and am still feeling awful about it.

A relief: I did more exercise this month!

A regret: I didn’t achieve any of the writing goals I set for myself.

A random memory: I saw my eye doctor for a check-up, since I needed a new prescription, and forgot he was verrry attractive. My eyes are also in great shape, and I get new lenses and frames on October 3. But anyway, my ophthamologist is a real looker.

October is my favourite month, even if it also has the anniversary of my rabbit’s death. I’m feeling a little optimistic about this month. I have a new planner, I have a lot of goals, and my medication is doing wonderfully at keeping me motivated and focused. (Now, at least; it’s been a week and a half on the increased dosage and I’m just now getting into the flow of things.)

My birthday is on Friday the 6th, by the way. 😉

Month In Review: August 2017

Oh jeez, I didn’t blog… at all in August. This happens sometimes, and you know what? Time to move on! I can’t go back and make August content when tomorrow is September.

A celebration: My poetry collection is done and now it just needs to be assembled and published.

A change: Impromptu break from blogging this month, haha.

A conflict: I think my medication needs to be upped to a higher dose.

A relief: My medication is working and I’m doing better when it comes to actually… doing things.

A regret: I didn’t blog much or edit my novel this month, nooo!

A random memory: I went camping for a week and there was a deer that just trotted onto the campsite while I was tending to the fire. It gave zero shits whatsoever.

I’m looking forward to September. I have a few appointments with the doctor the first week, one of which concerns my medication. I’m aiming to get more blog posts up about my experience on the antipsychotics! I have a few projects that I want to get back on the ground and work on, too. I’m trying not to think too far ahead to October, since there’s a lot going on in that month, but it’s hard to focus on the present sometimes.

Onward to fall! Give me cooler weather, please! I want to go running regularly!

Month In Review: July 2017

Time flew this month, wow! I can’t believe July is not only over, but we’re already three days into August. I’ll be glad once summer is over, to be honest. It’s too hot, too humid, and too lonely this time of year.

A celebration: Renovations started on the house and there has been lots of progress!

A change: My boyfriend and I ended our relationship.

A conflict: I started medication for my mental health and needed time adjusting to them.

A relief: My medication was pretty helpful! I’m going into the second month of them now and hoping for the best. There haven’t been many side effects since I started, too, so that’s also a relief.

A regret: I neglected my blog and my writing all over, so I feel guilty for making little progress on my novel and also not writing some of the posts I wanted to in July.

A random memory: I tweeted about this (see the moment here), but when I was doing yard work, there was a cute spider doing spider things. I’ve been practising more kindness toward bugs, since they were one of the things I immediately would scream at and try to kill. I have issues with being aggressive (and not in a good way), so being gentle with something that sued to make me impulsively want to kill it has been a great way in being gentler in the rest of my life.

I’m doing more work in August and trying not to think about the fall and winter. My home life is changing a lot once we get into the third quarter. October is going to be a busy month, along with my birthday month. I know that’s only two months ahead, but only a few months ago it was spring and I was moving back home from Windsor.

July 2017 Bullet Journal Spreads

Since I liked June’s layout so much, I did something very similar for July!

I started medication for my mental health just before the month started, so my biggest change is adding a symptom tracker for that.

I messed up on the calendar and did full boxes for the 7 x 6 dimensions, since I didn’t feel like using pencil and then erasing all the lines. I managed to save it with some artistic lettering and pretty new washi tape! It’s a good thing I had a short perseverance quote that I could smack into the bottom.

This month, instead of putting my goals and projects right into the journal, I’m using sticky notes so I can pull them out. They’re smaller and don’t get in the way like my notebook can, if I’m working at my desktop or my laptop. It’s been okay so far (I say, on the 3rd day into the month)—the stickiness is definitely lessening.

I have my mood tracking in the calendar, where the multiple colours are, and the legend on an index card in the front of my notebook near the key. Since the medication I’m on is specifically for moods (well, and other stuff), tracking my moods is going to be a more important part of my life. I’m glad I started doing it before the medication: it’s helped me reference highs and lows, my behaviour, and all that fun stuff to relay back to my doctor.

One other thing I did differently for July is set up all the weekly layouts in advance! That will save me time and decisions on the weekends now. I’ve enjoyed being able to use weekly layouts, instead of daily ones; it feels like I’m doing less during my day and thus everything is more important.

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Month In Review: June 2017

June… Ahh, June. It’s hard for me to disconnect this month with the end of school, even though elementary/public and secondary school are way back in my history. We got a lot of rain this month. I enjoyed it, even if it was out of the ordinary and interfered with the amount of jogging I could fit in. This last week, the temperatures have spiked and we’re up past my comfort zone like we probably will be for the rest of summer. (I hate temperatures above 20*C.) On to July!

A celebration: My degree came in the mail, so I officially have the documentation that I paid an institution a lot of money and met some credentials.

A change: I started medication for my mental health, and I plan to blog a bit on that.

A conflict: Social media this month hasn’t benefited me the way I’d like it to, so I’ve thought about taking a hiatus from it in July.

A relief: My father secured financing for renovations on the house. He hopes to start them in the next month, so that means I’ll have work to do with him and see changes in the house!!

A regret: I forgot to blog for half of this month, oops!

A random memory: There was a spider in my bathroom that I decided not to kill on the spot. When I went back to the bathroom later, the spider had moved to the sink—a very difficult spot to manoeuver if you’re killing or not killing the spider. Since I had already seen the spider on the wall and decided I didn’t need to kill it (it wasn’t bothering anybody!), I didn’t want to try drowning it in the sink, either. I spent fifteen, maybe twenty, minutes trying to get the spider on a piece of paper and under a container so I could move it. I successfully put it outside near a small anthill, so hopefully it had a good lunch.

I do have blog posts planned for July, and I do want to get them up in a timely manner and not forget about them.