Month In Review: July 2018

This month, my therapist said very blankly, “You’re depressed.” He’s right. I’m still depressed. I’m having a bit of an identity crisis as well. This review is a little late into August, but that’s okay. I’ll have a recap of August soon too. Let’s get into what I remember about July.

A celebration: I’m still here and am definitely climbing out of my rock bottom. Slowly, very slowly, reaching up to the fresh air again.

A change: Preparing for moving again. Preparing for my family moving out of province. My mental health changing because of the stress and changes.

A conflict: I’m still struggling with the right dosage for my medication. I’m also trying to balance my health management with my creative projects, which has been hard to maintain.

A relief: I’ve found a medication dosage and frequency that works for my health, along with some short term therapy.

A regret: Lack of commitment to all my projects.

A random memory: I don’t have one. This is the part that upsets me the most. I don’t… really remember anything.

August means back to work, back to school, and back out in the world again. I’m trying to keep up.

Month In Review: June 2018

My motivation for June wasn’t the best. It felt like I lost a few weeks to my mental health. In my review for May, I mentioned some goals I had for June—and I didn’t achieve any of them. So here’s a bit on what I did instead. (Spoiler: not a lot.)

A celebration: I applied for a college certificate program. I start in September! It’s an 8-month art and design course.

A change: More renovation work at the house means lots of changes to my surroundings. The upcoming school program is also a change I need to prepare for.

A conflict: I’m still struggling with the right dosage for my medication. I’m also trying to balance my health management with my creative projects, which has been hard to maintain.

A relief: The time I’ve spent at the gym has helped with my health (mental and physical health).

A regret: My creative projects—art, writing, the blog—have not gotten the attention I wish I could have given them.

A random memory: There’s a young bunny that likes our yard and I see it outside at 8am and 8pm every time I’m looking out the window those times. It makes me happy and reminds me of my pet bunny. I’m glad the wildlife likes the property.

I have only a few goals for July: my book, my art, and my health. I’ll try and keep the blog updated! But it won’t be as active as my Patreon, where I’ll be posting more about my writing and drawings. Also: back into therapy!

Hello 2018!

Welcome to March. Welcome to the new website! I’m so, so pleased that I finally got a design done for the site. I’ve been using a premade theme since I launched the blog at the start of 2016. Now, after all this time, my hand-coded theme is up. It also came with some rebranding to make my social media presence (on Twitter and Facebook) more “me” and cohesive with the website.

As of right now, I do not have the mobile site ready, so if you are a mobile reader, I apologise! Over the next little while, I’ll code the responsive design and (hopefully) seamlessly integrate it. I also don’t have my portfolio up, but that will be coming over the next month.

Let me know how you like the new design! It feels very “on brand” for me and who I feel I am as a person. If you encounter any glitches with it, please let me know here or on Twitter or any of my listed social media!

Anyway, where have I been since December? Let’s review, ok ok.

Month In Review: January 2018

I’ll be honest, January feels so far away to me. I remember I did driving lessons and that it was very cold most of the month. I’ve decided to be fairly private with my goals, at least for the first while of the year, but I’ll share one. I aim to submit to one literary magazine or journal each month of this year.

A celebration: I submitted some of my writing to a literary magazine!

A change: I spent less time on social media.

A conflict: My mental health was not the greatest this month.

A relief: I am decently medicated. That’s really the only relief I feel.

A regret: My driving test was cancelled and rescheduled to February.

A random memory: I had a guy on a dating app interrogate me about my mental illness, which I’m open about on these types of things, and then (after a few messages all on one day) had him decide that I was not mentally ill. He also sent me a ridiculously long poem AND a ridiculously long message about him being a “wanderer”; I thought it was all incredibly pathetic.

Month In Review: February 2018

It feels like spring came very early by the end of February, and I’m not complaining about it. The unfortunate cause is global climate change, but I can go outside without it being an immediate danger to myself, so I’m okay.

A celebration: I wrote another piece for submission!

A change: The website and my online brand got a refresh, which I love. I technically finished it at the start of March, but the design was finalised in February and the last few days were small-change-city.

A conflict: I feel insecure financially and it makes me very nervous for the future.

A relief: I passed my G2 driving test and can now drive alone.

A regret: I didn’t edit as much as I wanted to. I completed 2 chapters, but then the editing went to the backburner as I got into the thick of redesigning.

A random memory: My family spontaneously got together for a meal out at a restaurant. It was lovely, and we scheduled for another one in March. I think my dad wants to make it a habit to catch up with his kids, and I’m all for it.


I’m back now, so prepare yourselves for more blogging! I’ve brainstormed so many posts and ideas. I feel confident that my content is going to improve over the next few months. I’ve had time to work on the purpose for this blog, and now that I’m completely out of school, I can devote more time to it.

My freelancing business will be the main focus for my online presence, including the website. The last year has been incredible, working with writers and reading their stories. I’m so proud of each of them and what they’ve done with their writing. I’m excited to work with more people and do more creative projects with new writers!

Month In Review: December 2017

December was very cold and went by very quickly, yikes.

A celebration: I spent time with family and friends, all of which was awesome.

A change: I spent 2 weeks on a half-dose of my medication, and that was awful (and I’m back on my regular dose). At least that means my full dose works.

A conflict: None of my goals and projects were worked on this month.

A relief: I scheduled all of my driving lessons, which means I can get ready to schedule my driving test to get my G2 license.

A regret: No blogging or story editing this month, again.

A random memory: I went ice skating with a friend and fell flat on my ass. True Canadian style, especially with little kids under five years old skating better than me and passing me on the rink.

The new year is upon us and I’m ready to tackle my goals!

Month In Review: November 2017

November is come and gone. I’ve still felt withdrawn, but less introspective than I did at the start of the month.

A celebration: I released my poetry collection! You can find it on Amazon, but here’s a page with all the links where you can buy it in Kindle and paperback formats!

A change: The sun is setting before 5PM and I’m so annoyed.

A conflict: The weather has been so up and down lately! I haven’t been comfortable running when I want to because of how cold it’s gotten.

A relief: I purchased winter running gear (long-sleeve sport tech shirt and a windbreaker) that have been phenomenal at keeping me dry and warm.

A regret: No blogging this month. Barely any editing, too.

A random memory: I shared something in therapy and was awestruck by how everyone validated my feelings about what I shared. It was nice.

I’m struggling to manage all the projects I want to do, but the website is something I’m aiming to revamp soon, including the blog. I’ll probably start the new year with a different theme and blogging routine. Same goes for my editing services. I’m revamping what I offer once 2018 comes around. I plan not to blog through December, but I’ll be sure to finish the year off with both month and year in review posts.

Month In Review: September 2017

September is gone and it doesn’t really feel like autumn yet because of the outrageous heat wave we experienced in Southern Ontario. Climate change is awful, everyone. I will not survive this kind of heat on a daily basis in the future, ugh.

Anyway! I didn’t really get up to much in September. It feels like I kind of drifted through the weeks.

A celebration: I signed up for both driver’s ed and a mindfulness CBT program! Driver’s ed has gone well (2 more classes) and the MCBT program starts in the middle of October and goes to the end of the year.

A change: My medication was increased, thankfully.

A conflict: I struggled with time management and am still feeling awful about it.

A relief: I did more exercise this month!

A regret: I didn’t achieve any of the writing goals I set for myself.

A random memory: I saw my eye doctor for a check-up, since I needed a new prescription, and forgot he was verrry attractive. My eyes are also in great shape, and I get new lenses and frames on October 3. But anyway, my ophthamologist is a real looker.

October is my favourite month, even if it also has the anniversary of my rabbit’s death. I’m feeling a little optimistic about this month. I have a new planner, I have a lot of goals, and my medication is doing wonderfully at keeping me motivated and focused. (Now, at least; it’s been a week and a half on the increased dosage and I’m just now getting into the flow of things.)

My birthday is on Friday the 6th, by the way. 😉

Month In Review: February 2017

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Ah, February. I’ve never really enjoyed this month—it’s too short for my tastes. If we can have so many months with 31 days, why can’t February get 30 as well? Only 5 months really need an extra day to get to 365. I’m sure there are reasons for why certain months in certain calendars have X number of days, but I digress. The month is gone and we’re going to March!

A celebration: I finished my draft of THE PILGRIMAGE!

A change: The weather changed a lot—it was very warm and spring-like on a few days, even including a thunderstorm.

A conflict: I felt a lot of guilt for being so isolated from my friends and family.

A relief: My graduation application was sorted out completely (fingers crossed)!

A regret: I didn’t spend as much time brushing up on my coding skills.

A random memory: I helped my room mate bleach and dye her hair. It took about 2 hours, and the bathroom was surprisingly clean afterward. Her hair no longer looks like a blue-and-yellow cheetah print.

I hope March doesn’t go by quickly. Once April hits, I’ll be gunning to get ready to move—which means packing, scheduling utility turn-offs, and negotiating with the landlord for viewings. Here we go!

Month In Review: June 2016

Thin wooden boards with contrasting light and dark brown colouring.

Another month, another milestone, I suppose. I did a lot of reading this month, as well as a great amount of writing. I’ve been making progress. The #WriteChain has helped a bunch with keeping me going on my writing. Halfway into June, though, I cut back on the amount I was writing after I finished the first 1/3 of my WIP. I switched to doing some intensive research on religions and mythologies to help me with building a key aspect of the fantasy world. There are so many similarities between all these diverse religions! It’s incredible! The differences between them have also been inspiring. I’m progressing well with this rewrite of the book. I’m confident that I’ll be able to dive into revisions on this draft by the end of August.

One thing I aimed to do through June was my “30 Day Salad Challenge.” I didn’t do 30 days of salads, but I got really, really damn close. For a few days, I didn’t have the groceries to make salads, so that was alright. I think I replaced at least 5 meals every week with a salad. That’s an achievement considering I used to never eat salads unless I was ordering one at a restaurant. I made lots of homemade dressing with Greek yogurt and olive oil (plus other ingredients). I never realised Caesar dressing was simple to make, if you can skimp out on “authenticity” (/coughs at a raw egg yolk in the original recipe) and go for flavours.

Here are some of my favourite posts from June
A single adjective for June was sluggish.

Though the month seemed to go by quickly for me, each day was excruciating to get through. The heat makes me want to curl up on a train headed into a snowbank. The summer always makes me feel less productive, more cranky, and less excited. It’s a boring season filled with humidity and too many teenagers roaming around. I’ve also been plagued by headaches/migraines/cluster headaches (whatever the hell they are) once the average daily temperature reached a minimum 30 degrees Celsius (86 degrees Fahrenheit). I am not built for heat.

In July, I look forward to
  • seeing my oldest brother in the beginning of the month.
  • seeing my boyfriend for his birthday on July 5th.
  • going to the Royal Ontario Museum with my boyfriend.
  • starting design and formatting work for a local self-publishing author!
  • more writing—I have a very confident path for the book now that the scenes are in order and the beginning is completed.

Stay frosty, everyone. I know I’m trying to.

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