Month In Review: June 2018

My motivation for June wasn’t the best. It felt like I lost a few weeks to my mental health. In my review for May, I mentioned some goals I had for June—and I didn’t achieve any of them. So here’s a bit on what I did instead. (Spoiler: not a lot.)

A celebration: I applied for a college certificate program. I start in September! It’s an 8-month art and design course.

A change: More renovation work at the house means lots of changes to my surroundings. The upcoming school program is also a change I need to prepare for.

A conflict: I’m still struggling with the right dosage for my medication. I’m also trying to balance my health management with my creative projects, which has been hard to maintain.

A relief: The time I’ve spent at the gym has helped with my health (mental and physical health).

A regret: My creative projects—art, writing, the blog—have not gotten the attention I wish I could have given them.

A random memory: There’s a young bunny that likes our yard and I see it outside at 8am and 8pm every time I’m looking out the window those times. It makes me happy and reminds me of my pet bunny. I’m glad the wildlife likes the property.

I have only a few goals for July: my book, my art, and my health. I’ll try and keep the blog updated! But it won’t be as active as my Patreon, where I’ll be posting more about my writing and drawings. Also: back into therapy!

Month In Review: May 2018

May wasn’t the best month for me. I didn’t have the right medication dose and frequency, so I was struggling with the wrong dose and then adjusting to the proper one once I got it. My moods were all over the place. I’ve also been having nightmares more often, which wake me up early in the morning or in the middle of the night, and then I dissociate until I can ground myself in reality again. If you read my last post, about ugly bullet journal spreads, my planning was subpar. May didn’t have any major stresses, but it was a lot of personal issues relating back to my moods that influenced the month. Ah, the joys of having mental illness… But let’s take a quick look at other parts of May.

A celebration: I launched a Patreon! This will be for sneak peeks, behind the scenes, and exclusive content as thanks for support—and also, mostly, as motivation for me.

A change: For the last 2 weeks of May, I took a social media hiatus, which will continue into June. I have an addictive personality (thanks, bipolar!) and social media can become addicting to me. This was a needed and welcome change.

A conflict: I had issues with my prescription, so I wasn’t at the appropriate dosage for a few weeks. Then, I needed to adjust to the proper amount. I struggled with the adjustment and getting into a schedule/routine.

A relief: I got a job! Working for my own business is a job, but I got another part-time job that will hopefully help me over the next while.

A regret: Less writing than I wish I had done! This is a big pattern of regrets and problems for me. I’m not prioritising my writing as much as I’m prioritising other things.

A random memory: We had a massive wind storm in Ontario at the start of the month. It rained, and then the sun shone while the wind blew through in my town. I was out for a walk (returning a library book) and on my way home when I heard a tree cracking. I stopped and looked around—and then the tree fell down in front of me to block the whole road. A spider also fell on me in the wind right before the tree fell. The tree scared me more than the spider.

I’m feeling more hopeful for June. Some of my plans include signing up for a gym membership, finally finishing edits for The Pilgrimage, starting beta reading and sensitivity reading for The Pilgrimage, and making some adjustments to my website! Offline, the yard needs a lot of work, so I’ll be outside reclaiming the property from the overgrowth. I also have an announcement at the start of June, so stay tuned for that. I won’t be looking forward to the heat of summer, but a new month is a great time to start fresh with goals. Let’s hope I don’t burn out or get sunburned!

Month In Review: April 2018

April felt incredibly long, but not sluggish like March. I think I experienced all four seasons’ worth of weather—winter, fall, summer, and spring. But mostly winter. I had lots of small projects to work on, so I was fairly busy, but thankfully not overwhelmed. I can’t reveal everything I did this month, but much of it relates back to my artistic creating!

A celebration: I managed to get over the hardest parts of my revision of The Pilgrimage! Chapters 5 to 9 needed to be completely rewritten from nothing, and I finished them!

A change: The status of my employment changed! This is a good change.

A conflict: It still felt like winter all month long. It snowed for a week straight at one point and I was so done with it. I love winter so much, but when I lasts from November to the end of April? Half a year of winter? No fucking thank you.

A relief: I spent a week out of town and it ended up feeling like a mini-vacation. I traveled 2 hours away from my hometown and where I stayed was filled with grass, sunshine, and the beginning of spring!

A regret: The Pilgrimage didn’t get finished this month. I’ve been trying to finish it for a year now. I’m trying not to beat myself up over it, but I’m eager to finish so I can start Avatar Five, another fantasy novel-length project.

A random memory: I went to a dog park with my pal and his family dog (Alaskan Malamute, I love her), and we got a little lost on the way home. We were walking in a path and I almost stepped on a gartner snake. They’re relatively harmless to humans, so I paused and gave it some distance. It’s been a while since I’ve seen a snake in the wild, but I recognised it as the same kind that used to hang around my old house. (My friend is scared of snakes and went ahead with the pupper.)

Overall, April was a full month. I came home to warmer weather, made a pact to get back into jogging now that I can, and I’m feeling optimistic about May.

Month In Review: March 2018

Another month, another month in review. March felt like it crawled by. Sticky. Something long and arduous about it. Maybe it was the weather, constantly shifting from below freezing to warm breezes? It’s almost surreal that now it’s April.

A celebration: Spring is around the corner! Soon, I’ll have sweater weather, sunshine, flowers, and the joy of not having allergies!

A change: My younger brother finally brought home two cats named Pepper and Orangie.

A conflict: I’ve been applying for jobs, with no success.

A relief: I no longer have to pay for prescription medication (if the medication is covered by the new drug plan).

A regret: Once again, my novel’s edits went to the backburner. I’ve completed 5 chapters, so that’s something, but I wanted to have the novel done before March even started.

A random memory: I went to the grocery store one night to buy milk and bananas. I paid in exact change and didn’t use a bag, so I left the store carrying a bag of milk (#Canada) and holding a bunch of bananas. I felt powerful.

I don’t have any major plans for April aside from finishing my novel, preparing to launch (but not yet launching) a big creative thing (!!!), and getting back into exercising regularly. All I can say is I’m happy that spring is coming around. This winter felt very long and unpredictable.

Hello 2018!

Welcome to March. Welcome to the new website! I’m so, so pleased that I finally got a design done for the site. I’ve been using a premade theme since I launched the blog at the start of 2016. Now, after all this time, my hand-coded theme is up. It also came with some rebranding to make my social media presence (on Twitter and Facebook) more “me” and cohesive with the website.

As of right now, I do not have the mobile site ready, so if you are a mobile reader, I apologise! Over the next little while, I’ll code the responsive design and (hopefully) seamlessly integrate it. I also don’t have my portfolio up, but that will be coming over the next month.

Let me know how you like the new design! It feels very “on brand” for me and who I feel I am as a person. If you encounter any glitches with it, please let me know here or on Twitter or any of my listed social media!

Anyway, where have I been since December? Let’s review, ok ok.

Month In Review: January 2018

I’ll be honest, January feels so far away to me. I remember I did driving lessons and that it was very cold most of the month. I’ve decided to be fairly private with my goals, at least for the first while of the year, but I’ll share one. I aim to submit to one literary magazine or journal each month of this year.

A celebration: I submitted some of my writing to a literary magazine!

A change: I spent less time on social media.

A conflict: My mental health was not the greatest this month.

A relief: I am decently medicated. That’s really the only relief I feel.

A regret: My driving test was cancelled and rescheduled to February.

A random memory: I had a guy on a dating app interrogate me about my mental illness, which I’m open about on these types of things, and then (after a few messages all on one day) had him decide that I was not mentally ill. He also sent me a ridiculously long poem AND a ridiculously long message about him being a “wanderer”; I thought it was all incredibly pathetic.

Month In Review: February 2018

It feels like spring came very early by the end of February, and I’m not complaining about it. The unfortunate cause is global climate change, but I can go outside without it being an immediate danger to myself, so I’m okay.

A celebration: I wrote another piece for submission!

A change: The website and my online brand got a refresh, which I love. I technically finished it at the start of March, but the design was finalised in February and the last few days were small-change-city.

A conflict: I feel insecure financially and it makes me very nervous for the future.

A relief: I passed my G2 driving test and can now drive alone.

A regret: I didn’t edit as much as I wanted to. I completed 2 chapters, but then the editing went to the backburner as I got into the thick of redesigning.

A random memory: My family spontaneously got together for a meal out at a restaurant. It was lovely, and we scheduled for another one in March. I think my dad wants to make it a habit to catch up with his kids, and I’m all for it.


I’m back now, so prepare yourselves for more blogging! I’ve brainstormed so many posts and ideas. I feel confident that my content is going to improve over the next few months. I’ve had time to work on the purpose for this blog, and now that I’m completely out of school, I can devote more time to it.

My freelancing business will be the main focus for my online presence, including the website. The last year has been incredible, working with writers and reading their stories. I’m so proud of each of them and what they’ve done with their writing. I’m excited to work with more people and do more creative projects with new writers!