2nd Quarter Goals for 2018

I love working on goals by quarter. I already do month-by-month goals, but having ones that I can work on over a longer span of time is great for me. I still have flexibility, since the goals could be accomplished in 3 weeks, but also have more time to invest on my goals.

Over the next 13 weeks, I have a number of goals that I want to work on and achieve by the summer!

Writing Goals
  • Edit The Pilgrimage
  • Query The Pilgrimage
  • Submit to a literary magazine each month
Creative Goals
Personal Goals
  • Read 1 book every week
  • Do #CorylMornings as often as possible
  • Blog twice a week
  • Launch another super secret project
Freelance Goals

I’m keeping my month-by-month goals private and in my bullet journal for the time being, especially because my goals can fluctuate over time.

Two of my projects are secret ones, but they will be revealed over the next few weeks and months! I want to do a lot of creating as we go into spring and summer. Art, design, and writing are my top priorities.

Month In Review: March 2018

Another month, another month in review. March felt like it crawled by. Sticky. Something long and arduous about it. Maybe it was the weather, constantly shifting from below freezing to warm breezes? It’s almost surreal that now it’s April.

A celebration: Spring is around the corner! Soon, I’ll have sweater weather, sunshine, flowers, and the joy of not having allergies!

A change: My younger brother finally brought home two cats named Pepper and Orangie.

A conflict: I’ve been applying for jobs, with no success.

A relief: I no longer have to pay for prescription medication (if the medication is covered by the new drug plan).

A regret: Once again, my novel’s edits went to the backburner. I’ve completed 5 chapters, so that’s something, but I wanted to have the novel done before March even started.

A random memory: I went to the grocery store one night to buy milk and bananas. I paid in exact change and didn’t use a bag, so I left the store carrying a bag of milk (#Canada) and holding a bunch of bananas. I felt powerful.

I don’t have any major plans for April aside from finishing my novel, preparing to launch (but not yet launching) a big creative thing (!!!), and getting back into exercising regularly. All I can say is I’m happy that spring is coming around. This winter felt very long and unpredictable.

2017 Review

I had a lot of goals for 2017 that I didn’t achieve.

I’d say that’s okay, but there’s only so much slack I can give to myself. There’s only so much I can let slip by opposed to keeping myself accountable.

In 2017, I…

  • started freelance editing (January)
  • finished writing The Pilgrimage (February)
  • received my Bachelor of Arts from the University of Windsor (April)
  • moved back into my family home (May)
  • was prescribed medication for bipolar (June)
  • ended a long-term relationship/engagement (July)
  • made progress with my running (August and September)
  • visited Alberta for my dad’s wedding (October)
  • started driver’s ed and driving lessons (November)
  • survived another year (December)

No wonder when I saw my doctor in the middle of the year she said I was going through a lot of life changes.

I’m looking forward to 2018. There are goals from 2017 that I never finished, and also some that I never started. It will be my first full year not tied to school, which is very, very different, since I’ve never had time off of the educational institute in my life.

I’m hoping 2018 will leave me very fulfilled. ☺️

Month In Review: December 2017

December was very cold and went by very quickly, yikes.

A celebration: I spent time with family and friends, all of which was awesome.

A change: I spent 2 weeks on a half-dose of my medication, and that was awful (and I’m back on my regular dose). At least that means my full dose works.

A conflict: None of my goals and projects were worked on this month.

A relief: I scheduled all of my driving lessons, which means I can get ready to schedule my driving test to get my G2 license.

A regret: No blogging or story editing this month, again.

A random memory: I went ice skating with a friend and fell flat on my ass. True Canadian style, especially with little kids under five years old skating better than me and passing me on the rink.

The new year is upon us and I’m ready to tackle my goals!

Month In Review: November 2017

November is come and gone. I’ve still felt withdrawn, but less introspective than I did at the start of the month.

A celebration: I released my poetry collection! You can find it on Amazon, but here’s a page with all the links where you can buy it in Kindle and paperback formats!

A change: The sun is setting before 5PM and I’m so annoyed.

A conflict: The weather has been so up and down lately! I haven’t been comfortable running when I want to because of how cold it’s gotten.

A relief: I purchased winter running gear (long-sleeve sport tech shirt and a windbreaker) that have been phenomenal at keeping me dry and warm.

A regret: No blogging this month. Barely any editing, too.

A random memory: I shared something in therapy and was awestruck by how everyone validated my feelings about what I shared. It was nice.

I’m struggling to manage all the projects I want to do, but the website is something I’m aiming to revamp soon, including the blog. I’ll probably start the new year with a different theme and blogging routine. Same goes for my editing services. I’m revamping what I offer once 2018 comes around. I plan not to blog through December, but I’ll be sure to finish the year off with both month and year in review posts.

Month In Review: October 2017

A celebration: My dad got married!

A change: The season. It got cold very quickly.

A conflict: Inner turmoil. Feelings of not being good enough. But also not giving a fuck if I can’t meet my own standards.

A relief: Therapy.

A regret: Not a lot of blogging.

A random memory: I sat on my lawn for a while just watching a wild bunny eat. This little act made me remember my bunny, who passed away a year ago, and feel more connected with the cycle of life, death, nature, and humanity. By far the best random memory I’ve had this month.

Onward to November. I’m feeling very withdrawn, though you could also say I’m feeling very introspective. That’s the reason why my blog posts have been lacking this month. But I’m not forcing anything to happen. Just taking it one day at a time and trying to find myself again.

Poetry Collection Cover Reveal

Since I’m self-publishing my collection, I had control over the design. Being the artsy fuck that I am, I made the cover myself!

It has just the right amount of discordance to convey the discomfort that I feel is so present in each poem.

Anyway, here we go! No sense dillydallying.

A grey and blue compass on a green and blue high-contrast marble background that reads "Compasses and Other Ornaments of Direction" by Coryl Reef

It’s just a thumbnail. But I’m very, very pleased with it. I designed the compass by hand from sketches and then to a digital rendering, and the background is from hand-marbled paper that I scanned and messed around with. I’m proud of how the design ties into the poems without being overt.

Next up will be the pre-order links! They’ll be coming fairly soon for both ebook and paperback through Amazon KDP and CreateSpace.

Month In Review: September 2017

September is gone and it doesn’t really feel like autumn yet because of the outrageous heat wave we experienced in Southern Ontario. Climate change is awful, everyone. I will not survive this kind of heat on a daily basis in the future, ugh.

Anyway! I didn’t really get up to much in September. It feels like I kind of drifted through the weeks.

A celebration: I signed up for both driver’s ed and a mindfulness CBT program! Driver’s ed has gone well (2 more classes) and the MCBT program starts in the middle of October and goes to the end of the year.

A change: My medication was increased, thankfully.

A conflict: I struggled with time management and am still feeling awful about it.

A relief: I did more exercise this month!

A regret: I didn’t achieve any of the writing goals I set for myself.

A random memory: I saw my eye doctor for a check-up, since I needed a new prescription, and forgot he was verrry attractive. My eyes are also in great shape, and I get new lenses and frames on October 3. But anyway, my ophthamologist is a real looker.

October is my favourite month, even if it also has the anniversary of my rabbit’s death. I’m feeling a little optimistic about this month. I have a new planner, I have a lot of goals, and my medication is doing wonderfully at keeping me motivated and focused. (Now, at least; it’s been a week and a half on the increased dosage and I’m just now getting into the flow of things.)

My birthday is on Friday the 6th, by the way. 😉

Announcement: Self-Publishing My Poetry

I’m proud to announce I’m self-publishing a poetry collection this November!

COMPASSES AND OTHER ORNAMENTS OF DIRECTION is a 4-part journey that starts in the bliss of toxic love and finishes with lost and forward-thinking freedom after an abusive relationship.

This is a collection of poems I’ve been working on since 2013, when I first started trying to break free from an abusive online relationship. The majority of the poems were completed years ago, but only now have I processed them and the events they percolated from. I added more poems recently, bringing the collection to 4 parts instead of 3.

I’ve also started to realise how fucked up the origin of all these words and pains really is. I’m only now telling it with an appropriate amount of clarity, rather than disillusionment.

When I was a teenager, first new to the Internet and chat rooms and messaging programs, I met lots of people. People who were nice, people who weren’t. People who were catfishes and people who were random weirdos like me just chatting to others for the fun of it. And when I say “teenager”, I mean I was a 13-year-old who was relatively unsupervised and interacted with some creepy men.

I tend to romanticise the man and the relationship I had with him. I want so badly right now to speak well of him—a sentiment echoed in the poem “reincarnate” in the 4th part of the collection—but I know I shouldn’t. There are equal parts shame and protection when I think about him. I’m ashamed, in my 20s, to have been involved with a man in his 20s when I was 13 to 18.

I don’t talk to him now. I haven’t met him in person, I haven’t spoken to him in years, and I have no intention of reconnecting with him or revealing his full name. We weren’t exactly “involved” or dating, but I spent every waking moment talking to him or wanting to talk to him.

This is a hard story to tell when it’s one framed by shame and hurt, instead of the superiority or nonchalance with which I used to tell it. I hate being wrong. And I hate feeling like I’ve done something wrong. I was a child and he was an adult. No matter what anyone says, I’m not at fault.

And I guess this poetry collection is me trying to express the blame and pain I’ve held onto all these years, all the time I was brainwashed into dependency, all the parts of myself I molded to fit his desires.

So please buy the poetry collection. It releases on November 18 exclusively on Amazon in paperback and Kindle forms.

November 18 is significant to him. Maybe if I reclaim it some way, mark it as the day I slung my poems into the world, I’ll associate that day less with him and more with myself.

I’ll be posting small excerpts on my Twitter and my Instagram leading up to the release, as well as the preorder link when I get it! Follow to keep in touch. Cover reveal will be coming soon, too!

C25k Journey, Part 4

The couch-to-5K program is supposed to be done consistently, like any other exercise program, for it to be effective. I did not do it consistently over the summer. It may sound like I’m making excuses, but the weather just was not adequate for me to be outside running and I didn’t have the means to get to an air-conditioned gym or indoor track. I know what’s bad for my health, and exerting myself in humid and hot conditions is something that’s definitely, definitely bad for me.

So I’m restarting C25K! Now that fall is approaching, the temperatures are chillier (to a certain amount, but they’re still higher than they used to be because #climatechange). I’ve tried running in different temperatures, and anything above 18*C is too hot for me. What better way to get my regular exercise in by just restarting a program I knew was working and knew I could do? I’ve already done the first week again, and it was weird running the 1-minute intervals again after working myself up to 3-minute and 5-minute intervals! I felt like I was doing HIIT cardio while redoing Week 1.

The unfortunate thing is that the temperature has picked up again this week, so I haven’t run since I last went, and I don’t think I’ll be able to get a run in until the end of the month. But I know that when the temperature is a consistently comfortable one, I’ll be out every other day for my run. I’m so excited.

Week 1 was easy, even if I was blindsided by the 60-second intervals. I’ve gotten faster and my cardiovascular strength has improved. My usual 30-minute route isn’t long enough to fill 30-minutes now, so I loop back in a few sections to make up the difference between the time and distance. My heart rate returns to normal and has lowered significantly compared to when I first started.

Overall, I’m proud of what I’ve done even if it wasn’t a completed couch-to-5K program. This time, though, I’ll finish it for sure.