What a quick month, but that’s how time is: it continues and flows no matter what you do.
Some of my goals for this month included making a therapy appointment (success); blogging regularly (success); and do yoga more each week (success). There were other goals, but even with how open I am here, I like to maintain a bit of mystery and privacy.
- I started another semester at the University of Windsor.
- Somehow, I managed to stay on top of everything and have readings and assignments completed before classes.
- I started seeing a therapist for counselling .
- I’ve made progress with my eating disorder by reducing frequency and intensity of binges and the Cycle of Guilt and Shame.
- I did yoga almost daily!
- I managed to read a few books.
- I started blogging again, woot woot.
- My blogging routine became super streamlined, with a schedule, post ideas, and a “stock” for me to use when I’m in a pinch.
- I wrote haikus to ease myself back into writing creatively daily.
- I watched Inside Out and it was basically life-changing.
This month was alright for the start of the year (which, if you’ve read my 2016 Goals, doesn’t matter to me). I’m trying to make progress and putting in as much effort as I can. It’s been hard. It’s been damn hard. I think each week has involved more crying and discomfort than good vibes. But that’s okay. I think January focused on adjustment more than anything, like progress or health or joy or whatever.
Next month, I want to focus on myself. Selfishness? Is that the focus? Or is it independence? It doesn’t really matter. If it’s selfishness, then so be it. I’ll be selfish. I’ll be the most selfish if it means I can be happier and stop hating my appearance, my hobbies, my skills, my choices, my schooling—basically everything, unfortunately. So, alright. Selfishness.
I want to be content with my choices.
I want to experience my emotions without the shadow of guilt.
I want to care for my health more than punish myself for lack of health.
I want to write and read. Simple enough. Reading and writing, and enjoying both of them.
- Write for 20 minutes each day, as Jenny Perinovic is doing.
- Continue going to counselling for at least 2 more sessions.
- Weight train 2 times each week.
- Practise yoga 2 times each week.
- Read 4 books.
- Have a day of vegetarian meals once a week.